We watched Big Fish
      You said it was odd
But then again,
      So am I.

We ate ice cream
      On a harsh winter's day
It was frozen and unwanted
      Just like my heart.

We talked until three
      You said you'd call tomorrow
You told me you "forgot"
      But no one ever remembers.

You took my heart
      And with that you stole my smile
I wonder when you'll bring it back
      I miss it so.

You said you'd be here for me
      And then walked away
But please don't come back
      I don't need you anymore.

i get that this is stupid. but i don't much care. this is what is running through my head, always. stupid things like this. fictitious stories that mean nothing to anyone but me.

and my math grade is horrid, and I'm going to have to work my ass off to get the A I need.

and my sister and I are done, and my parents keep trying to push us together, but it hurts to much to go back until she apologizes.

and my grades in general just suck, there goes being #3 in my class.

and my heart feels shattered.

but at the same time you made it skip a beat today, (oh the irony in your actions.)

anddd I'm just done. I haven't felt this low, this empty, in years. its horrible.

keep calm and carry on.

~

I’m not going to lie,
I’m crying as I write this.
But I’m only sixteen,
So how can I fight this?

Too young to be broken,
Too old to fix it with a kiss.
Too sorry for apologies,
Or to point out what you miss.

So maybe I should change,
I could be a better me.
But instead I’m slowly drowning,
Drifting further out to sea.

-ugh. wish i could write again. can you say failed attempt? nothing i say, makes me content.